HIV – a diary

Protocol

• 15.11.2004
  Change in a positive sense

  … It’s nice that there are more men who still think they’re good from 50 (we’re like good red wine). The glow lasts, it’s a good feeling in the morning after SB and some things start to move. Indeed, nothing is as it was, but more remarkably, I am no longer who I once was…. and that in a good sense.

• 17.11.2004
  Doctors and HIV / Reiki

  D.: Reiki helped me with my first trial. 3 weeks ago, before the Reiki seminar, I decided to see a dentist after a long time. When I asked if the practice had any problems with my infection, they told me not really. So of course I was relieved that I had mentioned it at all. I was given an appointment and had to fill out a questionnaire that I went over with the employee there last week. Everything o.k. so far. On Monday then the refusal on my telephone answering machine (one could not sterilize the practice accordingly and keep antibacterial). In the past, I would have blushed bright red and been annoyed at my candor.
  And now, with Reiki: called my family doctor, very calmly described the case to him, asked how I should behave in the future with doctors regarding my illness, etc.. Sure, I was a bit hurt, but it lasted only a short time. But where to find the nearest dentist without another refusal. I looked in the phone book and called the first one in my area “by feel”, a very friendly lady didn’t understand the world anymore regarding the behavior of the other practice, immediately gave me an appointment for Wednesday and said: “Just don’t take it personally”. You can certainly imagine the cloud I was floating on.
  By the way, today was a very pleasant atmosphere with the first visit to the dentist, although the restoration of my teeth will probably be very costly and bloody. But I am no longer afraid.
  By the way, my family doctor doesn’t think my Reiki use is that great. He must have had bad experiences with so-called Reiki masters. I could only, since now not yet so well-read in Reiki, reassure him that I did not get the impression from my master that one gives about unasked other people Reiki or makes analyses.

  René: … I mean, there are legal requirements that someone with HIV or hepatitis has to inform the dentist. And conversely, a dentist may not discriminate against someone because of their disease. And if he can’t sterilize adequately, then I think he should lose his license. But bygones be bygones, you are in good hands now.
  To the family doctor: you do not need his approval of Reiki. He should only be informed and, above all, be vigilant as to whether the dosage level of the medication is changing. I think it is good when doctors are critical of complementary methods – especially when a patient “expects miracles” from them. It is also the case that, unfortunately, many practitioners of alternative or complementary methods behave in an elitist and dogmatic manner, fueling patients’ skepticism of conventional medicine. With this in mind, I see a great responsibility on the part of conventional physicians. Your family doctor should therefore be skeptical about Reiki, or the effect of Reiki on you.

• 24.03.2005
  Good development of values

  I went back to the lab on Monday after 5 months and had my T4 cell viral load etc. determined. It was the first examination after my Reiki course. What was a bit stressful was that I did not know how my immune system survived the general anesthesia on the occasion of the dental surgery and the antibiotic as well as the cortisone 3 weeks ago.
  Well … I have reached the % record for T4 (defense) cells since 1994 (since I have been analyzing the lab results) and the viral load is below the detection limit of 50 copies per ml of blood.
  My family doctor (the Reiki skeptic) has not been surprised for a long time and presents my value development at pharmacist conferences.
  So, that’s where Reiki came in strong this time and my stubbornness to do an hour of Reiki SB every morning is having an effect.

• 25.03.2005
  More offensive approach to HIV

  Since the seminar, I have been much more proactive about my HIV infection. That doesn’t mean I’m going to shove it down everyone’s throat, but where it fits, I’ll talk about it. You know, I’m not in the victim role anymore, I never liked that anyway, but since I realized that I’ve become more self-confident, I have, and this is now the answer to your question, no problems if you publish my email.
  By the way, I live alone…. but I am in a very stable relationship with myself (this is not meant as a joke). I am sure that if you accept and understand yourself, you will be less vulnerable. By accepting, I also mean the negative qualities.

• 07.09.2005
  Very good laboratory values

  … Thank God I was able to experience and develop the Reiki II seminar.
  My vision seems to become more and more concrete: After 6 months, I visited the laboratory at the request of my doctor. The results are clear: virus below detection limit and helper cells relatively on personal record. It is fascinating that the percentage, which was 16.3% before Reiki I in November 2004, rose to 17.4% in March, and after Reiki II it is now at the highest level I have ever had, 18.4% (the highest was 17.3%.) The absolute values are lower, but that is just related to the normal fluctuations in the level of leukocytes. That’s why I prefer to focus on the relative value.
  For my doctor very strange that the platelets, which are usually at 2-3,000 (normal are 150,000) suddenly stand at 13,000. He still can’t get comfortable with Reiki, I feel it every time I talk to him on the phone, but a) I am not interested and b) what counts are facts. And the fact is that the relative values have changed by almost 13% within 10 months.
  There is not and never will be a day without Reiki SB for me, even if I do it sitting on the balcony in the afternoon (Holstein stubbornness pays off here). In a nutshell, I’m happy to share this with you.

• 16.09.2005
  Viral load below 40 per ml - vision approaches

  A small addendum to my lab: the viral load was, due to an error by the lab, only set below 300 per ml of blood. However, the new methods can detect even below 40 per ml (virtually nothing left in the blood). But now I wanted to know (Holstein stubborn). So another blood draw and some agonizing waiting over the weekend. Result: under 40.
  So, I’m getting closer and closer to my vision (I know … it may or may not).

• 20.11.2005
  Reiki is a joy

  I am doing very well. It has been 1 year since I took the Reiki course. And a lot has happened. Reiki has become a part of my life and it is a joy to enjoy each day with it.
  This powerful energy, which my “little mind” didn’t really want to accept at first, (and to be honest, every now and then it tries to oppose it), has made quite a difference.
  The most beautiful experience I had 3 weeks ago. My friend had to endure thyroid surgery.
  I used the whole arsenal. Remote Reiki to her and to the surgery, etc. She survived the surgery well, slept well every night with the start of the distant Reiki treatment, even before the surgery (even I didn’t manage that in February). The lump is benign and after 3 days she was back home as bright as a button. This makes really FREUDE…..
  By the way, it was her first surgery, but she said I am not afraid because you send me Reiki and you are with me. You simply have to experience something like that.
  By the way… Teeth are now o.k., finally, after long treatments, I can smile brightly and bite.

• 08.01.2007
  Change not only in the laboratory

  My values are getting better every time. I’ve even gotten out of the habit, as I used to do, of always trumpeting how great the lab results are … I just enjoy it.

  Reiki, my daily companion, has already presented me with some interesting tasks in the past year. What fascinates me in particular is that the circle of people you want to surround yourself with changes over time … in other words … I feel very quickly who is good for me and who is not … Farewell to long-time friends included.

• 09.09.2007
  Best values, thanks to Reiki

  I have never had such good values in my entire time with HIV. And I always remember how you asked me on the occasion of the Reiki seminar 3 years ago if I still had the virus …. Do you still remember my face … Meanwhile I believe in it … the knowledge comes later …

• 21.02.2010
  Everything has its meaning

  … We last read about each other in December 2008. But I’m really happy that you still have me on your radar. A lot has happened in the last 14 months:
  a) My immune status has stabilized again after the horrible relapse in March 2008. But it took me until November 2009 to get back to where I wanted to be. By the way: probable trigger of the virus increase, you can hardly believe it: preventive hepatitis A vaccination (because of my vacations in the south) … however, I found this out by chance on the net only in November 2009. All specialists very amazed!!!!!!
  But everything has its meaning, because that’s how I got to a TCM doctor in April 2008, who has me very well under control by acupuncture and herbs. He is very much into Qi Gong and thinks Reiki is great.

• 06.11.2013
  Baltic Sea and local politics

  … Glad to read that you both are doing well. I moved to the Baltic Sea in 2010. My TCM doctor had acupunctured me strangely 4 years ago, I woke up at night, belly wanted to move to the Baltic Sea, internet researched and 2 weeks later signed lease (all no joke). However, was here 3 times a few days for vacation.

  For a good year now, I have been involved in local politics, and have had 2 major electoral setbacks, but that is also part of life. Met interesting people and I’m not getting any dumber through local politics. Healthwise still everything o.k. Reiki is done every morning without exception, then in the evening Qi Gong, some yoga and a short meditation.

• 18.07.2014
  Stabilizes on more than one level

  How are I and my T4 cells doing? Well, everything is very stable, no viral load and the medication is still working. 7 years ago my doctor switched a medication because there was a low VL (but only a gaaanz little). In numbers, T4 cells have increased from 16% in 2004 to 27% today (normal range starts at 29%!!!!).
  Of course, the side effects are starting to show, especially the kidneys are weakening a bit. However, my TCM doctor (Traditional Chinese Medicine) is on the ball.
  I do not start a day without Reiki treatment. It’s already as natural as brushing your teeth.
  Along the way, however, Qi Gong, some yoga and a short meditation, if time permits.
  In local politics I had to pass some election campaigns and since one month I am member of the local council in XXX and 2nd deputy chairman. And this as a member of a marginal party (FDP).
  This does not only bring joy, many prejudices are confirmed that politics and politicians are unfortunately not straightforward and honest and it teems with profile neurotics. However, I still enjoy it because I can make a difference in small ways. At the moment, I’m trying to get out of my harmony trap and make myself unpopular sometimes, if I have to for the sake of it.
  I am sure that the two Reiki courses through you have planted in me the seed for my work today.